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I Despise My Sufferings. And I’m So Thankful For Them.

The hours, days, and years that I've spent waiting, praying, weeping, and wrestling with "why" - they are too many to count. These memories - these profound moments of heartbreak, helplessness, and horror - they've changed every part of who I am.  But here's what's remarkable. Although part of those changes have consisted of the… Continue reading I Despise My Sufferings. And I’m So Thankful For Them.

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Souls, Sufferers, and Sinners

On any given day, problems and challenges surround us. Politically and morally, we’re seeing some of those challenges rise to the surface in an acute way, between the LGBTQ movements, abortion debates, injustices, etc. And even in our daily life, we're all trying to navigate a specific struggle with sin, a wayward child, a suffering… Continue reading Souls, Sufferers, and Sinners

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Trust Through the Dark Brings Triumph in the Dawn

Any follower of Jesus can attest to experiences when the night of adversity seemed long, dark, and at times, nearly hopeless. For some, those nights are brief yet brutal. For others, those nights may last decades, slowly wearing away at our earthly hopes. But for the one who remains steadfast in faith, even if holding… Continue reading Trust Through the Dark Brings Triumph in the Dawn

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Evil Won’t Have the Last Word

If I didn’t believe God was sovereign and good, I would be paralyzed in fear to live in a world that seems darker by the day. If the magnitude of grief, tragedy, evil, and violence makes our stomachs churn and hearts shatter, I can’t imagine how it must grieve and break the heart of our… Continue reading Evil Won’t Have the Last Word

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An Unlikely Weapon To Fight Despair

My sufferings have brought me near the painful sting of death. Yet, those deaths have also led to greater life. It's the dichotomy of the Christian life. Sorrows that lead to joy. Loss that leads to gain. Death that leads to life. Even still, in the midst of the darkest days, I've had to fight… Continue reading An Unlikely Weapon To Fight Despair

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Roe vs. Wade and the Deceitfulness of My Own Heart

This is not a political post, it’s a spiritual one. Because this week’s news and the outrage it’s caused has highlighted one thing with great clarity - every single one of us has a sinful nature that is capable of justifying ANYTHING. And not only justifying it, but truly believe we are doing what’s right.… Continue reading Roe vs. Wade and the Deceitfulness of My Own Heart

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There is no Pit so Deep That He is Not Deeper Still

Mom! Dad! Something keeps biting me!” one of our children yelled. We ran into the family room to investigate what was happening. As soon as I realized the cause, I froze. Fleas! Nope, no way, this was too much. Everything in me wanted to run for the hills, escape the horror we were living in, and… Continue reading There is no Pit so Deep That He is Not Deeper Still

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The Story isn’t Finished

This is a personal one for me. One I don't share much of, but I know many are quietly suffering in this way, so here it goes - Most of my fifteen years of motherhood have been spent sitting outside or inside my precious child's room, trying to protect him by keeping him (and I)… Continue reading The Story isn’t Finished

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If God Really Loved Me, He Would…

Why are we surprised when trials come? Why do we quickly question God’s goodness, love, and control when we experience the pain of this world? For me, I think it’s because there is a pervasive belief that subtly infiltrates my thought life. One that, deep down, still believes God would keep me from harm and… Continue reading If God Really Loved Me, He Would…

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Lord, Help my Unbelief

“Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of… Continue reading Lord, Help my Unbelief