I’m a Christ-following stay-at-home mom with 4 kids under the age of 10. When I am not wearing my mommy hat, I enjoy getting away with husband, studying my Bible with a cup of coffee by my side, and catching my breath from the demands and stresses of life. In my spare time, which is pretty much never, I have grown to love writing and speaking about what the Lord is teaching me in His Word and through the suffering that He has allowed in my life. I have had the privilege of writing for Desiring God, The Gospel Coalition, Revive Our Hearts, Christianity Today, Unlocking the Bible, Crosswalk, and Challies.com, and I recently co-authored a book on suffering with my sister-in-Christ, Kristen Wetherell (find her blog at http://kristenwetherell.com). I am humbled and excited to announce the release of our book, “Hope When It Hurts: Biblical Reflections That Help You Grasp God’s purpose in Your Suffering”. It’s available at https://www.thegoodbook.com/hope-when-it-hurts#review-form, Amazon, and many local bookstores.
I have been set apart for two reasons. First and foremost, as a servant of Jesus Christ, I have been “set apart for the Gospel of God” (Romans 1:1). We have been told in God’s Word that following Christ would not be easy. In fact, we are called to take up our cross daily and follow Him. That’s no easy task when my flesh is constantly seeking its own will, comfort, and desires. But through the trials and suffering of life, Christ has increasingly loosened my grip of control in my life and continues to show me that everything this world has to offer is worth giving up in order to have more of Him.
The second reason I have been set apart is because I have been given a unique calling to raise a son with a neurological/behavioral disorder, which we now have good reason to believe has been the devastating effect of Lyme’s Disease. I myself, have finally been diagnosed with Lyme’s Disease after battling long-term struggles with chronic health issues and, as increasing health problems continued to grow in all 4 of our children, it finally became clear that I passed Lyme Disease to each one of them. This awful disease has ravaged our family and left us fighting – no, clinging – for hope, joy, and strength with every breath we take. This has been a painful, heartbreaking, and even scary journey at times. Many days, survival is the only goal I can reach. It’s been an exhausting, wearing, confusing journey, which at times even feels hopeless. Although we often feel alone, as if no one can imagine what life is like for us, God tells us that nothing is new under the sun. We all know pain, in one form or another. Therefore, my hope is that the Lord will use my pain and heartache to encourage others and point them to Him. I pray that He will speak through me to those who need to be reminded that there is a greater hope than anything this world can offer. As my hope in this world has increasingly faded, my hope in the Lord and promised eternity in His glory has increasingly grown.
So how do I travel this hard road that God has chosen for me? It’s lonely, exhausting, and sometimes seems as if there will be no end. But moment by moment, He is teaching me to let go of what I think I want and need and, instead, set my eyes on things of eternal value. I often fail and, at times, feel like I’m holding onto faith the size of a mustard seed. But Christ will be faithful until the end. Until then, I take up my cross daily and seek to follow him as He writes a story in my life that is so much bigger than me.
Clinging to Christ,