Suffering with hope

Raging Storms and a “Sleeping” Savior

Life is filled with storms - some that blow in and blow out, without leaving a trace, some that are fairly harmless, but seem to have no end, and some that knock us off our feet and level everything in their path. Whatever the length or intensity may be, storms will come in all shape… Continue reading Raging Storms and a “Sleeping” Savior

Parenting, Suffering with hope

Frozen in Grief: The Pain of Ambiguous Loss

As we drove away from what felt like the millionth doctor’s appointment for our son, the new prescriptions and prospective treatments felt more like a setup for disappointment than a prospect of future hope. After more than a decade of doctors, evaluations, treatments, diets, and therapies, somehow it always feels like we’re right back where… Continue reading Frozen in Grief: The Pain of Ambiguous Loss

Fighting the Good Fight

The Grass Isn’t Always Greener on the Other Side

This convicts me every time I see it. It’s so easy to get caught in the cycle of longing for the life we wish we had. But when we do that, we’re ultimately believing the lie that God’s plan for us isn’t a good and trustworthy plan. Sometimes we miss the good within the life… Continue reading The Grass Isn’t Always Greener on the Other Side

Fighting the Good Fight, Gospel living, Treasures Found in the Trials of Life

The Idols are Falling In the Land of the Free

This chaos, this sense of instability, this clashing of opinions on every topic - it is all the result of the idols of our day crashing down around us. The idol of false security is now exposing where we truly put our hope and confidence. The idol of “what is right for you is right… Continue reading The Idols are Falling In the Land of the Free

Suffering with hope

Seeing the Unseen – Hope for Families Living With Unseen Special Needs

I stirred uncomfortably in my seat, struggling to accept the reality that this chair had my name on it for a reason. I sat there quietly and listened as the group went around sharing their personal journey of special needs. One family shared about their sweet boy living with a genetic disorder, bound to a… Continue reading Seeing the Unseen – Hope for Families Living With Unseen Special Needs

Suffering with hope

He Will Carry Me Home – A Poem

He Will Carry Me Home In moments of grief Heart being shattered He held me close My body and mind battered. * Head in my hands Heart feeling numb Reached the end of myself Where would my help come from? * The mountain looms before me Hands and feet tied An impossible feat Yet he… Continue reading He Will Carry Me Home – A Poem

Suffering with hope

Lyme Disease and the Imagery of Sin

It’s been twenty years since my health began to decline for unknown reasons and it’s been six years since I first heard the words “Chronic Lyme Disease” (or for you science folk, Borrelia Burgdorferi that’s taken up residence long enough to impact countless systems in the body and become resistant to treatment). Like many others,… Continue reading Lyme Disease and the Imagery of Sin

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Faith in Uncertainty and Courage in Chaos

Yesterday was HARD. We had a difficult family situation that was like a fresh wound being ripped open again and e-learning just about put me in my grave. But I woke up this morning and sat with my Bible open feeling somewhat paralyzed...and looked out the window. I was met with the beauty of yet… Continue reading Faith in Uncertainty and Courage in Chaos

Suffering with hope

A Hopelessness that Fuels Hope

After four months of a cortisone shot restoring some ability to walk, the pain in my ankle had returned and all the fears of the future came with it. As I found myself limited yet again, waiting to see if it was temporary or what I would be left with, I wrestled with doubts and… Continue reading A Hopelessness that Fuels Hope

Suffering with hope

What the Year 2020 Has Taught Me

STEADFASTNESS. This has been the theme of the year for me.  ~Steadfastness in persevering and seeking to honor the Lord in my days, despite a body of pain.  ~Steadfastness in circumstances that carry a level of stress that has taken a toll on my body, mind, and emotions in countless ways.  ~Steadfastness in parenting through… Continue reading What the Year 2020 Has Taught Me