Suffering with hope

When We Grow Weak in the Wilderness

I greatly dislike feeling weak. In fact, I often do what I can to avoid feeling weak, or at least appearing weak. Yet, these days, there’s no denying it. I am weak to the core. My body is weak as it continues to be beaten down by stress, exhaustion, and chronic illness.  My mothering abilities feel weak as I grow weary trying to care for 4 children battling illness, including one with complex special needs. My marriage is constantly barraged with a stress load that statistically leaves 90% of marriages in divorce. And if I’m honest, my faith has felt weak as I’ve wrestled with the Lord through the shock, confusion, fears, and weariness over yet another blow to our family – the loss of our sole income – again. In my flesh, I’m tired and beaten down. But in the fight to press on each day, the Spirit has carried me in a strength that has been both sufficient and satisfying.

This past week, as I have been faced with a fresh sense of weakness, I have spent time meditating on Paul’s words in 2 Corinthians 12:8-10. If you’re struggling with a sense of weakness (whether physical, emotional, or spiritual) in your life, I hope to encourage you with these three reminders.

Come to Christ honestly with your weakness and emotions, trusting you are accepted and loved.

“Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this (Paul’s thorn in his flesh), that it should leave me.” (2 Corinthians 12:8, emphasis mine)

I admit, when my husband sat me down and told me that he’d lost his job, only three months after he was hired due to his company’s poor handling of finances, I went through a period of shock and confusion as to why God would allow yet another blow to our family. We were already feeling as though we were sinking and had been praying for deliverance, healing, and provision. Losing our sole income was not exactly what I had pictured the Lord’s answer to be. I’m not going to pretend that my immediate response was, “Thank you, Lord, for this new opportunity to trust you.” No, I felt an array of emotions and was unsure of what to do with it all. I felt numb, completely overwhelmed by the dire reality of what was in front of us. There are so many questions, so many fears, and so many unknowns. What felt like overwhelming weakness has become a feeling of utter helplessness.

What do we do in a place like this?

We have to throw ourselves upon Christ, even the messy, confused, questioning part of us. He knows our thoughts, emotions, and hearts better than we do, and we are believing a lie of the enemy if we think that we have to pull ourselves together before we can bring ourselves before him. 

Friend, the Lord knows that we are ‘but dust’ (Psalm 103:14). He knows the multi-layered effects of trauma, pain, loss, fear, suffering, and the emotional ups and downs of life. And most importantly, he is the only One who can give us all that we need in these moments. I am learning on a deeper level that I am fully accepted by my Savior, even when I’m an absolute mess inside. And so are you. Why then do we often seek momentary comforts and solutions to temporarily drown out our pain, rather than throw ourselves down at his feet in dependence on his mercy, grace, provision, and strength? Jesus knows what we need and is able and willing to provide it, so let’s bring ourselves to him in honest prayer and a willingness to receive what he has for us in his Word. He will be faithful to meet us where we are – mess and all.

Come to Christ with your weakness, expecting to receive his strength.

“But he said to me,‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’” (v9a)

I am unable to fully understand or describe how the Spirit strengthens us in our weakness, but I know that I am experiencing it this very moment. Just as we can’t see the wind with our eyes, yet see evidence of its presence, we can’t see or always feel the strength of Christ flowing through us, yet see evidence of his power. I have definitely not felt strong this past week. However, as I look back, I marvel at how the Lord has infused me with his strength in my weakness. In my flesh, I’ve wanted to run – but I haven’t. In my flesh, I’ve been tempted to question the Lord, yet I’ve found myself desperate to be near him and drawn to the Word as if it were my very lifeline of survival. I’ve felt little desire to get up each morning to care for my kids (or myself), yet he somehow carries me through each day. Although I don’t feel strong, I see incredible evidence of his strength in me. So I encourage you to draw near to Christ honestly and trust that he will give you the strength that you need for today. You may not feel it in the moment, but he will be faithful to equip you with what you need each and every moment – even if it’s simply to take your next breath.

Come to Christ with your weaknesses, bringing glory to him as you find joy in his strength.

Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12:9-10)

I can say with confidence that as you experience Christ’s strength in your weakness, you will gradually experience glimpses of joy, even in circumstances that you don’t enjoy. Only the power of the Spirit can explain how we can despise our circumstances and yet feel joyful within them. This is why Paul was able to boast gladly in his weaknesses. His weaknesses drew him into a deeper love-relationship with and reliance on his Savior. Though I imagine he found no joy in the thorn in his flesh, his words express a contentment and joy within it as he experienced the strength of Christ infused in his weakness. As Paul’s love for Christ grew, despite and through the pain in his life, his joy grew as Christ’s name was glorified through his weakness. Oh, I pray that this would be true of you and me! Whatever trials we are entrusted with in this life, whether brief or spanning our entire lifetime, may we be so satisfied with Jesus that we can gladly boast in our weaknesses because of how Christ’s power is miraculously displayed through them. Of course, that doesn’t mean we don’t pray for relief, healing, or provision, but if the Lord chooses not to bring it, we have an opportunity to bear the evidence of Christ’s power shining through our flawed, weak, and broken lives.

The sweetness of experiencing Christ’s strength in our weakness.  

As much as I have grieved, ached, cried, and sat in silence this past week (and the last 12 years), I have experienced a sweet, satisfying dependence on Christ that no words can sufficiently describe. While we have been blown away by the love that others have sacrificially shown us, ultimately it is Christ Himself who has sustained us, provided what we need, and carried us through this darkness. And we step forward in faith, trusting that he will continue to provide on this wilderness journey. There is a strange sense of freedom that comes with knowing that God alone is big enough to save us. He has taken away all resources, allowing even our basic needs to be threatened. Yet, what an incredible opportunity to throw ourselves wholeheartedly on his trustworthy name and watch his power be made perfect in our weakness. My prayer for you is that you would see your weaknesses and trials as opportunities to draw nearer to Christ and experience the joy of seeing his strength shine through them. Though the pain may remain, our understanding may be limited, and our trials may continue, if we are in Christ, we can come to him honestly, fill ourselves with the truth of his Word, and trust that our weaknesses will become a vessel to display his strength.

In Christ, 

Sarah Walton



To read more on the hope we have in suffering, you can purchase “Hope When It Hurts – 30 Biblical Reflections to Help You Grasp God’s Purpose in Your Suffering” authored by Sarah Walton and Kristen Wetherell here or on Amazon. You can purchase the audio version here and the Spanish translation can now be purchased at You can also now pre-order Jeff and Sarah Walton’s forthcoming book, Together Through the Storms – Biblical Encouragements for Your Marriage When Life Hurts (spring 2020)

15 thoughts on “When We Grow Weak in the Wilderness”

  1. Sarah, I am a mom of 11. I have had lymes for 6 1/2 years now. It was through the podcast u did with Revive Our Hearts that I first heard of you. I emailed Kristen Wetherall and found a Dr with her help. Just want you to know yr emails are such an encouragement to me. Thank you for yr willingness to encourage others in their suffering. Lymes is a long hard journey, but God is always good!! I will keep you and yr family in my prayers. May God bless you. Brooke Vautier

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  2. Sarah, our faith has been tested a number of times but it pales in comparison with what you and your family are experiencing. I’m thinking God loves you folks a whole bunch because of your faith and trust in Him. As I read your post I was overcome with the depth of beauty in your words and encouragement to others. Just lifted you and your family up to God in prayer. Much love and blessings!

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  3. This message truly blessed my heart.. I’m experiencing some really tough times in my life right now and your story a great encouragement to me.. thanks for sharing and my God continue to strengthen to..Sent from my Samsung Galaxy smartphone.

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    1. Going through a tough time right now. Living with empty hands. Have no child to hold other than my wonderful husband, and your story strengthened and encouraged me and tonight it is going to give me a good night sleep, and when I wake up I will be strong knowing and remembering God is always by my side no matter what.
      Thank you Sarah for sharing your story and I will always pray for you for God to bless you with everything that He has in store for you right now in Jesus name!


  4. I’m grateful you articulate for me the refuge we have in God and in His promises. I’m in the deep end of the pool myself, with trials that just keep multiplying. A truth that helps me accept my situations is how well I know that when my life runs smoothly and I have interests that preoccupy me then I’m too likely to let my attention to God slip through the cracks. When the focus is on me and my interests it slides away from God and His interest in me. So, with Paul, “Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me”.

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  5. So glad I read this today! These words sound like they could have been written by me, for I feel these same things on almost a daily basis. It helps to know I’m not alone and that someone else out there can relate! Thanks for writing 🙂


  6. Sarah my sister in law got me your book over a year ago before I knew I had chronic Lyme, my husband has it and possibly my 4 year old. Thank you for being faithful in writing DURING the suffering… I am relying on Lord to continue to blog through it faithfully too 🙏

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  7. Sarah, I so appreciate your honesty and your faith. I will be praying for God’s provision for your family. Thank you for blessing us in your sharing and pointing us to Christ in our difficulties.

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  8. Hi Sarah, My mom just gave me your book, “Hope When it Hurts.” I look forward to the encouragement to come. Many days, I have found your blog to be just what I needed. I ,too, am fighting a Lyme battle of almost 9 years duration. We have 5 children–three of the family have Lyme, too. I just went to a clinic called LymeStop in LaCrosse, WI (I live in Michigan). I see in the book you go to WI for treatments. I found that my pain level went down after the first treatment, which makes me cautiously hopeful. I only mention this because I got some relief, as I know how it is to receive unsolicited suggestions!

    May God grant you the continued grace and strength to fight this battle,

    Persevering with you, Rachel Jamieson


    1. Hi Rachel, Thank you so much for your encouragement. I’m really sorry to hear that you and your family is battling this as well. Thank God that he reigns over this awful disease. Yes, I was going to a clinic in Wisconsin for a couple of years until we just couldn’t take the trip anymore. Now we have seen a practice in Illinois for the last few years, which has helped (although it’s still always a battle). I hope that you’ll continue to be encouraged and I truly hope the book is a blessing to you. Keep pressing on!


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