Desiring God Posts, Suffering with hope

Trapped in My Own Mind – Three Lies Depression Loves

I can’t live like this anymore!” I cried through sobs. “I just want to die!” I sat on my bed and tried to make sense of what was going on inside. I was tired of the chronic pain, the frequent bouts of illness, and the weariness of dealing with my kids’ struggles. But what broke… Continue reading Trapped in My Own Mind – Three Lies Depression Loves

Desiring God Posts, Marriage

Married to Weakness – Loving Our Spouse Through Suffering

“Lord, I pray you will do a physical miracle in my wife, but if you choose not to, then work a spiritual miracle in me so that I can love her well until the end.” These were the words of Dr. Robertson McQuilkin, shortly after receiving his wife’s Alzheimer’s diagnosis. His response pierced my heart… Continue reading Married to Weakness – Loving Our Spouse Through Suffering

Desiring God Posts, Parenting, Suffering with hope

Weak Moms, Strong God

Mother’s Day can be painful. I often look at my children and feel crushed by the weight of responsibility to raise them with the obstacles we face. Living with Lyme Disease makes motherhood physically painful, and having passed Lyme on to my four children is emotionally painful. Our circumstances often feel overwhelming and impossible to… Continue reading Weak Moms, Strong God

Desiring God Posts, Suffering with hope

Weakness Is an Invitation from God

I clearly remember the day my husband lost his job. The sudden reality of being a family of six with Lyme Disease and no income left me feeling emotionally and spiritually paralyzed. Eventually, as the shock wore off, an overwhelming sense of weakness and fear began to seep into every hidden, self-reliant crevice of my… Continue reading Weakness Is an Invitation from God

Desiring God Posts, Parenting, Suffering with hope

Trusting God with Our Children’s Pain

I felt a wave of lightheadedness wash over me as I held my three-year-old’s hand. His screams pierced my heart as he fought the nurse’s attempts to insert a PICC line for the upcoming IV treatments. I don’t know if I can do this again, I thought, as the realization hit me that I would… Continue reading Trusting God with Our Children’s Pain

Desiring God Posts, Suffering with hope

Pain Will Not Have the Last Word

Pain has taken its toll on me — physically, emotionally, and mentally. The damage isn’t always visible on my face or in my words, but it’s always there, tempting me to view everything through the lens of an aching heart and a weary spirit. No one lives this life untouched. We all experience the brokenness… Continue reading Pain Will Not Have the Last Word

Desiring God Posts, Suffering with hope

The Road I Would Never Choose – Learning to Follow Wherever God Leads

At some point in life, many of us find ourselves on a path that we would have never chosen. Once on that path, we are always faced with a choice. We can frantically search for a way out, or embrace the path God has chosen for us. I have been on one of those undesirable… Continue reading The Road I Would Never Choose – Learning to Follow Wherever God Leads