Suffering with hope

Why Trials Aren’t the Only Cause of Our Suffering

A few weeks before last Easter, something snapped in me and let me assure you, it wasn't pretty. I walked out of my son's room after a long, exhausting struggle with him, scared by the anger and impatience that his special needs had suddenly provoked in me. It's impossible to explain all that brought me… Continue reading Why Trials Aren’t the Only Cause of Our Suffering

Fighting the Good Fight, Gospel living, Suffering with hope, Treasures Found in the Trials of Life, Unlocking The Bible

Three Things to Remember When Life Is Hard

Disoriented. Numb. Somber. There are few words to describe where my heart has been lately. I feel inadequate to describe all the reasons why or how I have gotten to this place. But even if was able, the circumstances aren’t the point. The point is that even as Christians, we can face feelings of despair.… Continue reading Three Things to Remember When Life Is Hard

Desiring God Posts, Parenting, Suffering with hope

Weak Moms, Strong God

Mother’s Day can be painful. I often look at my children and feel crushed by the weight of responsibility to raise them with the obstacles we face. Living with Lyme Disease makes motherhood physically painful, and having passed Lyme on to my four children is emotionally painful. Our circumstances often feel overwhelming and impossible to… Continue reading Weak Moms, Strong God

Desiring God Posts, Parenting, Suffering with hope

Trusting God with Our Children’s Pain

I felt a wave of lightheadedness wash over me as I held my three-year-old’s hand. His screams pierced my heart as he fought the nurse’s attempts to insert a PICC line for the upcoming IV treatments. I don’t know if I can do this again, I thought, as the realization hit me that I would… Continue reading Trusting God with Our Children’s Pain

Suffering with hope, Unlocking The Bible

When Your Find Yourself In a Dry and Weary Land

I was 17. I had my whole life ahead of me and yet, there I found myself, wanting it all to end. I sat silently in a stark white hospital room, broken, hurting, and alone. How did I end up here? Not more than a year earlier, I had been basking in the attention and… Continue reading When Your Find Yourself In a Dry and Weary Land

Marriage

When Marriage is Filled with Worse, Poorer, and Sickness.

I remember the moment that I stood before my groom and recited my wedding vows. I certainly didn't expect life to be perfect, but I naturally assumed my marriage would be filled with more of the "better" than the "worse". With stars in my eyes and blissfully unaware of what the future would hold, I… Continue reading When Marriage is Filled with Worse, Poorer, and Sickness.

Fighting the Good Fight, Gospel living, Suffering with hope, Treasures Found in the Trials of Life

In My Weakness

I greatly dislike feeling weak. In fact, I often do what I can to avoid feeling weak, or at least appearing weak. Yet, these days, there is no denying it. I am weak to the core. My body is weak as it continues to be beaten down by Lyme disease and its devastating effects. My… Continue reading In My Weakness