Desiring God Posts, Suffering with hope

Trapped in My Own Mind – Three Lies Depression Loves

I can’t live like this anymore!” I cried through sobs. “I just want to die!” I sat on my bed and tried to make sense of what was going on inside. I was tired of the chronic pain, the frequent bouts of illness, and the weariness of dealing with my kids’ struggles. But what broke… Continue reading Trapped in My Own Mind – Three Lies Depression Loves

Desiring God Posts, Suffering with hope

Weakness Is an Invitation from God

I clearly remember the day my husband lost his job. The sudden reality of being a family of six with Lyme Disease and no income left me feeling emotionally and spiritually paralyzed. Eventually, as the shock wore off, an overwhelming sense of weakness and fear began to seep into every hidden, self-reliant crevice of my… Continue reading Weakness Is an Invitation from God

Desiring God Posts, Parenting, Suffering with hope

Trusting God with Our Children’s Pain

I felt a wave of lightheadedness wash over me as I held my three-year-old’s hand. His screams pierced my heart as he fought the nurse’s attempts to insert a PICC line for the upcoming IV treatments. I don’t know if I can do this again, I thought, as the realization hit me that I would… Continue reading Trusting God with Our Children’s Pain

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Pain Will Not Have the Last Word

Pain has taken its toll on me — physically, emotionally, and mentally. The damage isn’t always visible on my face or in my words, but it’s always there, tempting me to view everything through the lens of an aching heart and a weary spirit. No one lives this life untouched. We all experience the brokenness… Continue reading Pain Will Not Have the Last Word

Desiring God Posts, Suffering with hope

What If God Takes It All Away? Trusting Him Through Financial Struggles

Recently we drove past our old house for the first time since downsizing. Immediately, our four children began rehearsing memories, noting every part of the house that they missed. Once again, they struggled to understand why we had to give it all up. As hard as I tried to respond with confidence that it was… Continue reading What If God Takes It All Away? Trusting Him Through Financial Struggles