Suffering with hope

Frozen in Grief – the Pain of Ambiguous Loss

As we drove away from what felt like the millionth doctor’s appointment for our son, the new prescriptions and prospective treatments felt more like a set up for disappointment than a prospect of future hope. We had lived in this space for twelve years, ever since the realization that our son’s challenges were far beyond… Continue reading Frozen in Grief – the Pain of Ambiguous Loss

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Grief is Not a Sign of Unbelief – Walking Through Loss in Marriage

Then Job arose and tore his robe and shaved his head and fell on the ground and worshiped. (Job 1 v 20-22) When loss comes, grief is often not far behind. Though the shock of pain or the adrenalin of the survival instinct may make us appear strong for a time, grief—“the inward desolation that… Continue reading Grief is Not a Sign of Unbelief – Walking Through Loss in Marriage

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A Prayer For Anxious Times

"Put your trust in the Lord." Psalm 4:5 Lord, there is so much to fear as sickness and chaos loom all around us. Earthly security is as stable as the shifting winds, and the unknowns that lie ahead are unsettling at best and paralyzing at their worst. We know all things are under your control.… Continue reading A Prayer For Anxious Times

Suffering with hope, Together Through the Storms

Frozen in Grief: The Pain of Ambiguous Loss

As we drove away from what felt like the millionth doctor’s appointment for our son, the new prescriptions and prospective treatments felt more like a setup for disappointment than a prospect of future hope. After more than a decade of doctors, evaluations, treatments, diets, and therapies, somehow it always feels like we’re right back where… Continue reading Frozen in Grief: The Pain of Ambiguous Loss

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Three Things to Remember in the Disorienting Days Ahead

As we suddenly find ourselves isolated, battling worry and fear, and watching our lives come to a jarring halt, it's easy for fear, despair, and a sense of hopelessness to seep into our shrinking walls of isolation. Do we pretend that we don't feel these conflicting emotions as believers because "we know that we can… Continue reading Three Things to Remember in the Disorienting Days Ahead

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Frozen in Grief – the Pain of Ambiguous Loss

As we drove away from what felt like the millionth doctor’s appointment for our son, the new prescriptions and prospective treatments felt more like a set up for disappointment than a prospect of future hope. We had lived in this space for twelve years, ever since the realization that our son’s challenges were far beyond… Continue reading Frozen in Grief – the Pain of Ambiguous Loss

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Each Day Is More Impossible – Hope on the Long Road of Suffering

It’s been eight weeks since I went in for my fifth ankle surgery, uncertain of whether it would restore my ability to walk. As I remain couchbound, waiting to see what walking ability I will be left with, I’ve been wrestling with doubts and fears over all the seemingly impossible circumstances that God continues to… Continue reading Each Day Is More Impossible – Hope on the Long Road of Suffering

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What If God Takes It All Away? Trusting Him Through Financial Struggles

Recently we drove past our old house for the first time since downsizing. Immediately, our four children began rehearsing memories, noting every part of the house that they missed. Once again, they struggled to understand why we had to give it all up. As hard as I tried to respond with confidence that it was… Continue reading What If God Takes It All Away? Trusting Him Through Financial Struggles

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The Waves of Grief Will Give Way

“Why did God make me this way? I’ve asked him to change me every day, but he never does. My life is hopeless — there’s no point to trying anymore.” My child curled up in a heap on the floor and sobbed. I sat down next to him, empty of words and fighting my own… Continue reading The Waves of Grief Will Give Way

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When Christmas is a Fresh Reminder of What You’ve Lost

[Update - this is reposted from two years ago, as the reminders are helpful to me again. While, by God's kindness, we have an income once again, I now find myself unable to walk this Christmas due to an increasing ankle defect. These lessons often need to be re-learned, whatever the specific trials may be.]… Continue reading When Christmas is a Fresh Reminder of What You’ve Lost