Suffering with hope

Facing the Impossible

We were desperate. How could we go on like this - standing before a metaphorical mountain that seems impossible to scale on our own? We prayed. We pleaded. We endured. We waited. Then God did something miraculous and brought what seemed to be the answer we desperately needed. Although that answer would bring a different… Continue reading Facing the Impossible

Hope When It Hurts

In the Darkness of Night, New Mercies We will Find

~In the Darkness of Night, New Mercies we will Sing~ The joy that I once knew Is swallowed up by sorrow As the darkness of night Blinds my hope for tomorrow. Weariness has taken up residence Where my strength to fight once flourished Though many are at ease all around us Our comfort and peace… Continue reading In the Darkness of Night, New Mercies We will Find

Suffering with hope

When the Path is Dark – Remember

Disoriented. Numb. Somber. There are few words to describe where my heart has been lately. I feel inadequate to describe all the reasons why or how I have gotten to this place but, even if was able, the circumstances aren’t the point. The point is that even as Christians, we can face feelings of despair.… Continue reading When the Path is Dark – Remember

Suffering with hope

The Path of Silent Suffering

How can it be When silence is deafening In a world of noise Yet loneliness unending. Visible but unseen Present but unknown They say this story being written Must mostly be walked alone. When we’re called to live in community But face trials that seclude What a disorienting Christian dichotomy Carrying a weight that very… Continue reading The Path of Silent Suffering

Hope When It Hurts, Marriage

Grief is Not a Sign of Unbelief – Walking Through Loss in Marriage

Then Job arose and tore his robe and shaved his head and fell on the ground and worshiped. (Job 1 v 20-22) When loss comes, grief is often not far behind. Though the shock of pain or the adrenalin of the survival instinct may make us appear strong for a time, grief—“the inward desolation that… Continue reading Grief is Not a Sign of Unbelief – Walking Through Loss in Marriage

Suffering with hope

Raging Storms and a “Sleeping” Savior

Life is filled with storms - some that blow in and blow out, without leaving a trace, some that are fairly harmless, but seem to have no end, and some that knock us off our feet and level everything in their path. Whatever the length or intensity may be, storms will come in all shape… Continue reading Raging Storms and a “Sleeping” Savior

Parenting, Suffering with hope

Frozen in Grief: The Pain of Ambiguous Loss

As we drove away from what felt like the millionth doctor’s appointment for our son, the new prescriptions and prospective treatments felt more like a setup for disappointment than a prospect of future hope. After more than a decade of doctors, evaluations, treatments, diets, and therapies, somehow it always feels like we’re right back where… Continue reading Frozen in Grief: The Pain of Ambiguous Loss

Suffering with hope

Faith in Uncertainty and Courage in Chaos

Yesterday was HARD. We had a difficult family situation that was like a fresh wound being ripped open again and e-learning just about put me in my grave. But I woke up this morning and sat with my Bible open feeling somewhat paralyzed...and looked out the window. I was met with the beauty of yet… Continue reading Faith in Uncertainty and Courage in Chaos

Suffering with hope

A Hopelessness that Fuels Hope

After four months of a cortisone shot restoring some ability to walk, the pain in my ankle had returned and all the fears of the future came with it. As I found myself limited yet again, waiting to see if it was temporary or what I would be left with, I wrestled with doubts and… Continue reading A Hopelessness that Fuels Hope

Suffering with hope

What the Year 2020 Has Taught Me

STEADFASTNESS. This has been the theme of the year for me.  ~Steadfastness in persevering and seeking to honor the Lord in my days, despite a body of pain.  ~Steadfastness in circumstances that carry a level of stress that has taken a toll on my body, mind, and emotions in countless ways.  ~Steadfastness in parenting through… Continue reading What the Year 2020 Has Taught Me